Dog tired!

I am SO looking forward to getting home today. Unfortunately it wont last long because I have to go out again tonight, but this weekend will be for recharging, baking, cooking, cleaning and feeding my soul.

I have come to realize that the harder one works, the better one feels about himself- or in my case- herself. It is so easy to fall into a sedentary routine but becoming active again and finishing projects, creating things and expanding your horizons is far more gratifying.

I put myself into a situation yesterday that really made me nervous but I did really well, and each time I stretch my boundaries, I find out that I can do more than I imagined, but I also am mildly disappointed in myself for not trying before. This makes me wonder where I would be now if I had realized this in my 20s- likely a vet, an environmental lawyer, or something far more gratifying. Not that teaching isn't gratifying, but honestly sometimes I think in the grand scheme of things it is rather Mickey-Mouse. But then that is what I began to think of the kind of photography work I was doing. I went off to teach in Korea for a year, save enough to volunteer in Nepal and go into humanitarian work, and instead I stuck with teaching.

I could've done worse, I know, but now I am thinking I could do far better.